I hit a wall of being overwhelmed by these oh so common scenarios we find ourselves ministering in. Why God? Where are you in all of this? All week He has been revealing to me that I am not in control for a reason and although it doesn't make sense to me I need to trust Him. He ultimately is a God of love and reason. Seems simple but is hard to grasp when I found myself consumed by the pain and brokenness of the Swazi people.

"Love them Megan. That is what I have put before you. You cannot save them. Only I can. Show them my Love! "

So I began to pray for the sick. Pray for miraculous healing not just physically but in the hearts of the Swazis. I began to pray that He would show them the hope found in Him and as I prayed I found passage after passage about His hope, love and joy. So beyond anything we can even comprehend. The verse that was in my head pretty much 24/7 this week was-

"Lord, that is my prayer for the Swazi people. Fill them with Your joy and peace that their lives and spirits overflow with Your hope. God take this nation! Do a mighty work. Thank you for the hope and joy you have put in me. Thank you for your goodness. Thank you for having a plan and purpose so beyond me. Help me to trust you fully even when it doesn't seem to make sense. I love you Abba. Amen."